Thursday, September 4, 2008

Why Children's Literature is Important

In the second year of my undergraduate studies at UC Santa Cruz in Literature and Feminist Studies, I took introductory theory courses for both of my majors. Literature Theory focused on the role of the author in 20th Century literature while Feminist Theories explored the construction of narratives—narratives of identities, historical and cultural constructions, the way we come to understand truth—in academic theory, in social and moral understandings, in our classroom.

From those courses I came away with two concepts: “What is the role of the author?” and “Don’t get sucked into the anecdote.” As a student of literature and an author of my own work in narrative poetry and creative non-fiction, I approach the first question from two angles. When reading and investigating a piece of literature, I take into consideration the historical and geo-political context as well as the intentions of the author and what they mean or do not mean to the work. When working on a piece of my own writing, I am often asking how my identity and intentions shape the context of my work. Thus, whether it is my own work or a piece of literature, it is how a narrative takes form—and why—that intrigues me most.

My interest in narrative construction lies not just in the story arc, but in the political and cultural ramifications of that narrative’s construction through its ability to entertain. As my feminist professor stood in front of the lecture hall, she entertained us—with stories of the author’s life or her own, of current events, or popular culture. However, as soon as we had relaxed, we were reminded not to become too enamored with the proverbial “anecdote.” “What is important about how I am telling this story?” she would ask. We were not allowed to ignore or forget that a narrative is actively constructed, shaped by context, author and reader, storyteller and listener.

While stories have intrinsic entertainment value, the way an author or story-teller constructs their narrative can be just as telling. As a student of poetry, I focused early on the importance of form. Titled “In the Telling of a Love Story” my senior thesis in Poetry was founded on the idea that form can be as subversive as content. Through that work, I tried to show how the form of a narrative about two women in love can be just as politically or radically significant as the content of the story itself.

In a similar vein, I feel the authors of children’s literature are combining form and narrative to achieve an agenda for a target audience. Children’s literature does not just entertain through this pairing, it aims to instruct as well. These stories hold their audience’s attention while also serving as tools of indoctrination, shaping the way a child sees, interacts and understands the world around them. Authors are thus actively informing the next generation’s ideas of family structures, aspects of identity, cultural customs, social interactions and an understanding of truth.

As an area of study then, I feel it is important to highlight what is currently being reflected in children’s literature about our present culture and society. What does it mean for the child to understand that not every house-hold has a set of heterosexual, biological parents at its helm? How do children form their personal identity through a bombardment of gender roles in their bedtime stories? How does an author explain the concept of sharing in a way that will prepare children for our technological, multicultural, and international society?

I hope to explore the impact of form and narrative through the Masters in Children’s Literature programme at Roehampton University, combining my backgrounds in literature and feminist theories. I feel passionately about children’s literature because these stories have and will impact how we and future generations understand and interact with the world around us. These narratives—of sharing, of families, of imaginary realms and creatures—are actively constructed by adults for children (and adults) and should be paid due attention. Thus the study of children’s literature not only has the potential to be entertaining, the work is political and subversive as well.

Friday, August 29, 2008

27 cents

At my employer of hip frozen yogurt, we have started to tax those purchases which are eaten on the premises. So, at the end of each order I have to ask "For Here or To Go?"

The responses to this question are varied, but the general three sentiments are:
"Why are you asking? Oh, you wanna know if I need a lid."
"Why are you asking? Oh, it's cheaper To Go isn't it? To go."
and
"Why are you asking? It's for here."
(They pay for their froyo.)
"Oh, is it more expensive if I eat it here?"

My responses to these responses are varied, but the general three sentiments are:
Quiet and self-hating as part of the capitalist system
Polite (and generally not amused by the young guy trying to hit on me)
Embarrassed

Today a woman came in, around two and a half hours after we'd opened and inquired about the strength our Pomegranate Bluberry flavor. This isn't an inquiry we get very often so I happily replied that is does have a strong Pomegranate Blueberry flavor with a tart undertone of our Original flavor. (When you work at frozen yogurt, it's sometimes fun to make it sound fancy). She seemed please by this response and order a Junior size.

When it came to total her order I of course asked if it was "For Here" or "To Go." She said it was "For Here," so I tapped the button and taxed her frozen yogurt.

Almost counting the thirty seconds, she turned around from the spoon and napkin stand and asked if there was a price difference for eating in or "stepping foot out the door."

"It's taxable if you eat it here."
"Fuck that."

She walked out the door and around our railing. I thought she had gotten frustrated enough not to actually stay and eat her frozen yogurt. The other customer inside gave me a sympathetic look.

But on principle I guess, she came back and sat herself at one of the outside tables.

27 cents. That's what she was taxed for eating at one of our tables.

I wanted to yell at her and be snipy, but that would only provoke more of the same. So I tried to think of something different.

Opening the cash register, I took out 27 cents and walked outside.

"Ma'am, here's your tax back."
"I don't want it."
"And I'd appreciate it if you don't speak to me like that again."
"I won't be coming back here."

She didn't look at me. I turned around before she'd finished speaking, went to my tip jar and took out 27 cents to replenish the till, and went straight to the backroom crying.

People get upset over the smallest things, whether it's justified or not. And there are small victories to be won. But who gets squashed along the way?

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Heavenly Day

For the past five odd years, Patty Griffin has been a solid soundtrack to my life. My dearest Rosie introduced me to her and while I neglected the beautifully burnt CD in some random holder for much too long, I finally got my butt into gear and fell in love.

The truly impressive part is that as this amazing artist has morphed through her career, her songs continue to resonate with me, like a good lover ebbs and flows with you. Take "Heavenly Day" for example. I couldn't help but envision Alex in my arms as we danced, the song lilting through my kitchen at first listen.

I wanted to sit down tonight and write something beautiful. At every appropriate and unexpected moment, Alex reminds me that I love to write; in fact, that maybe writing is something deeply ingrained within me that I should really just quit denying. Or at very least, honor.

Like me returning by ferry tonight from a walk up to the cliffs of Pol Ruan, wild flowers tied in a small bouquet, and she sweetly asks me from behind the bar if I've been writing tonight. There is a pause in my response where I smile from her love, and then hold up my newly acquired copy of Lion Boy and smile at my reading-children's-literature-as-research style of an evening.

I'm not the first artist to ever have a muse. I'm not the last. But I am very lucky.

Monday, July 28, 2008

Long Time Gone Now

I love the Dixie Chicks. This isn't a new revelation. More a sporatic affirmation that there are people out there who kick ass in any number of professions. Also an affirmation that there are people out there who desire to live their lives according to them--and hopefully don't harass nice customer service people who are just doing their jobs. I don't know this last bit for sure, but since it was really only Natalie Maines' comment at Shepard's Bush that got them in the news, I don't think of them as rude people at all, especially to normal, every day people who aren't screwing up royaling on more fronts then just foreign policy.

Where is this coming from? I find myself asking. I'm not typically a cynical, jaded person who loathes meeting new people, friendly faces, on a daily basis. Why the rising stress level even working less than 40 hours a week? It could be any number of crazy (and truly often times amazing) things happening in my life, but like Carrie Bradshaw, I like to inspect the most apparent situation at hand, ask myself silly questions, want to throw little tantrums and blame outside sources for my decline in happiness: I now work full-time in one location of a frozen yogurt franchise in West LA and I think I hate my job. "Hate" may be a strong word, but "dislike" just isn't poetic enough.

What do I hate about it exactly? Well, to say it was cutting fruit, cleaning dishing, mixing frozen yogurt batches, or my manager might be along the right lines, but it would just be lazy: who really wants to like or do any of those things for 35+ hours of their every week. No, it's the customers I hate.

Truly, I probably set myself up for this. As I prepared for leaving my unpaid internship at Nest and my hostess position at Louise's in return for more hours, same money, and less gas in my car, I thought, well, maybe serving frozen yogurt will be a noble (temporary) position. I mean, after all, I'll be sculpting dessert for the masses, and who doesn't love dessert. What dessert doesn't bring a smile to people's faces, joy in their hearts, and contentment in their stomachs.

Wrong. I really should get used to this.

Disillusionment is normal at my age, thematic really if you read/see/hear/disgest anything produced from my age bracket (cough cough) so again, not that original. But, still, I rage.

The number of people who walk in excited for froyo, have joy on their faces when they order, and actually enjoy every bite of their frozen treat are rare--and usually, they don't tip.

And instead of getting to replay fun interactions with customers in my head as I cut strawberries, or even feel like I'm a productive employee, I find myself stewing over the old white dude who was so smug when he asked if the owners were Korean that I wish I had the gall to ask if his department was run by old white men who were jerky enough to hire an asshole like him. The mother and daughter who waltzed in, tried a flavor, really wanted chocolate and practically had already walked out the door by the time I responded to their "Is there an ice cream place nearby?" The men who think they can order me around just because I'm a server or hit on me cause I'm pretty and trapped behind a counter. Or the women with gigantic rocks on their fingers who somehow just piss me off by existing--jealously, maybe, I acknowledge that, but really I wouldn't trade my life for theirs any day.

So now I understand just a little bit better all those movies and TV shows about customer service employees. I still don't want to associate myself with them, but for this blogpost, I join them in solidarity: it just might get to that point where someone asks just one more time "Is this like PinkBerry?" and just get back-handed from across the counter.

I'm over-qualified, nostaglic for my keyboard, and welcoming myself back to blogging world with a proper rant, after a long time gone now. I think it'll be better.

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Update on Immaculate Conception

A la Kate:

Ok, so:
I was thinking about your immaculate conception and how you and Alex have been chosen by God to start the world anew, and my thinking led me to some supporting evidence.

1. There is a folk song centered around the line "California is a Garden of Eden."
2. California has just made gay marriage legal.
3. Therefore, new Garden of Eden = non-heteronormative relationships

ALSO
Yours and Alex's names are the initials of Adam and Eve (Alex and Erica). And you're the one immaculately carrying the future of the world in your womb.

So...
I think that's it.

End quote.

I love her. And she would so be a godparent.

Friday, May 30, 2008

Glittery about LA

There are just little moments sometimes that make me feel glittery about LA. You know that feeling when you can't help but bubble over in a smile because only in LA would you see or hear or witness whatever it is that you just saw or heard or witnessed.

Sure there are things that make me feel not so glittery, like the inability to find parking, or free parking, sometimes, people looking into your trailer window late at night, or having only gay men featured and pictured in the LA Weekly's write up on the same-sex marriage court decision celebration, but those are quickly forgotten in the midst of other moments.

Like pulling into a random metered spot on the street, searching my coin cup, pockets or purse for change and realizing once I'm out of the car that it's a failed meter and I can swing that space for free.

Or like two well-dressed older women coming into Louise's one night with sweet wedding rings on, a calm, gentle demeanor about them, and the cuteness to tell Chad that their left-overs can go in the same bag.

Or like tonight, also at the restaurant, when a middle-aged gay man came in for dinner with his parents and as he left I realized he was telling them about the beautiful gold ring he'd gotten for his partner's birthday and that his mom had shiny gold runners on as they walked out the door.

Thursday, May 29, 2008

People I Might Try to be in England

1. Full-time lover
2. Full-time employee
3. Florist shop apprentice
4. Doula
5. Post-college athlete
6. Frequenter of Paris
7. Member of a Transatlantic Craft Exchange (Ladies?)
8. Gardener (even of indoor plants)
9. Dancer
10. Tube rider
11. Tea drinker
12. Low budget domestic goddess
13. Train rider
14. Bed snuggler

This is all very in-advance, but, hey, the mind turns.